sometimes
i wonder if i am experiencing more than what an 20 years old female would be going through.
sometimes
i just had to admit that i had so much to deal with,
that i think female my age wouldnt that to deal with.
sometimes
i'm put to the test that challenge me.
sometimes
i just wonder if i'm really too overreactive or i'm just emotionally inclined.
sometimes
i just had to acknowledge that this is my life.
sometimes
i wish it isnt my life.
sometimes
i just had to face it like i'm someone not me.
james: silvia, u missing home is it?
me: no?
james: really? i see you like miss home like that...
me: no arhz.... i'm alrite. hahha. (i'm watching TV for heaven sake)
james: sure? usually after 2 months people will start to miss home. like me, when i first come here i miss my mum.. but now my mum miss me more instead. hahah.
me: lol.. ok la... i'm still not homesick.
james: ya la.. u are already 21( NO, I'M 20 GOING 21!) maybe if u are 12, 13 like that, you sure will miss home.
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after the conversation, i looked into my pictures in my lappie.
and i realise i have more photos of my friends and crap rather than my family and relatives.
HOW IRONY!
i started looking thru me n my family pics and somehow i feel rather odd.
it's a kind of feeling like seeing as thou u are dead and u are looking from heaven back at the loved one u left behind. or vice verus.
JUST WERID i swear.
looks like it's all just memories..
(i noe.. emo.. LOLx.)
but well, i guess everyone that has left home before will have this feeling i suppose.
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so anyhow, when i tot streaming to perfect10 radio station online in perth is a paradise to boredom here. ( and well, a catch up to all sporeans)
my new gimmick is this:
http://www.mix.com.au/
perth's number one radio station, MIX ( like how every radio stations say that theirs is number one.. lol)
i think the music they spin is way better, most of it is reminisce of my era(LOLx), and erm, songs i sing in singstar.. LOl.
one thing for sure, their music dont interrupt my studying.
HAHAHA.
it's 3am here, gotta flip some bks n get to zzzz.
I SHOULDNT HAVE APPEARED OFFLINE.
>.<
NOW I MISSED A CHANCE!
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DAMNIT!
today i've learnt that saying your batt is low is such a good excuse.
at least u can hang up at any moment n get away from your bullshit.
LOLx.
so was suppose to sleep like 1hr ago...
and so, i wasted 1 hr of my sleeping time to some useless crap.
tat is soooo unproductive at all, that i alway think that it's better if he dun call me.
LOLx.
seriously, it just get soooo bad when he talks.
and it just boil me to tink why is there such CREATURE..
i would have avoid if i am him..
but well, people are all intelligently different..
i suppose some people just belong to the low side.
HAHAH.
anyhow, do u know what's gonna make me happy?
seeing a parcel of my name with unlimited stuff inside..
LOLx.
i'm just envyyyyy... hehhehe..
mine's tooo small!
had a great week.
1stly, they brought me to aly's house to do some harvesting. lol..
and it's reali a great experience to me esp when we get fruits from supermarket, it's reali special when u climb up a tree and start gathering your fruits. hehehe.
2ndly, i went to curtin idol @ hilton hotel.. toking about it, the bouncer is reali terrible... niwae, jiahui won the most vote...had a rather good time there, DJ's music a bit off for me only.. den mike send me home, jenny, lina n gang went for P!NK concert!!!! damn! let's go for the june one!!! lol
3rdly, went to perth motorshow... how cool? all along in sg i wanted to go for one. and now, my last motor show goes to perth.. not much high tech cars only.... seeing one of the eagles player there made my day i suppose.. hahha.
4th, mike bought me n the girls out for a nite!! like finally.. hahaha.. thanks to him mien... so we went to onxy bar first, cuz jenny wanna met up with her fren, den we waited for shihling to arrive.. den we headed down to metro.. lina and her friends are there already... so we jus party the whole nite... place was ok, but i guess it's the band that goes to the stage that makes us high.
i'm happy with it =)
going to watch my tv,
people, plz dun spam me...
hate it!
today, i took 3 trips of buses.
2 of which made a BIG detour around curtin.
the driver spent 5mins to get back to it's original route.
1 of which, the driver hit 3 curbs.
yea, how THRILLING >.<
unlike our SBS buses, i've been taking for 10+years...
i dun see they made any mistakes at all.
and here in perth, out of the 2mths i am in, i've encountered detouring twice!
so when i borad my 3rd trip, i tot i must be in luck.
cause the driver actually talked to me and even showed me to view the sunset. ( cuz i'm sitting at the front of the bus)
but, there was this road block, and we had to make a detour again!!!
WTF 3 detours in one day!!!
i've broken my record.
at least the least one is explainable, but the rest is WTH.
ok, i'm tired....
me: kel, do u think your parents will mind if i go to Curtin idol?
kel: go la! i dun think they will disagree.
me: errrr... i mean go and watch it, not to participate and sing.....
kel: ohhhhh...
wHAHAH.. kel's funny...
anyhow, spirit aint that high today.
got my assignment back today, and i can say i aint happy at all.
not that i did badly or wad, but the sense that i can do soooo much beter drains me.
i know i cant blame anyone thou i wish i had a better days before so i could give my best for my paper... but.... i only can blame myself for letting such nasty stuffs affects me.. HMpT!
so i tot about it the whole afternoon, and come to conclusion that i shall prove myself right.
but... i'm still slacking! hahaha.
aishah on the other hand is someone that is high acheiving and being ard her aint easy.. cuz she had this high expectation of herself and copes badly with failures... makes myself feel... hmmm.. a lil out of place.
but poor jamal,
if failing his paper aint of a big blow to them, having to eat aishah home cooked meal aint tat bad ya? hahhaha
thanks aishah!
you made me look like an idiot, jamal!oh ya... mr scott morgan, thou i live in willetton, it doesnt means that i go to willetton senior high rite? lol.. how funny of him to ask me if by chance we graduate from the same senior high.
maybe others that stay in willetton. but i'm SINGAPOREAN ya... no CHINA... just CHINESE.
lolx
see my new car!!!
hahaha...
hahaha...
took this at canning vale last weekend, went over there for dinner today.
chinese restaurant over there. so shirley's family was there. saw lil brian? he's a nasty lil fellow.
had snow crab, and ermm... actually i still like those black color crabs tat we had over in sg? i suppose they are srilanka or somewhere-nearby crabs. that is sooo fat, sooo full of meat and taste excellent cooked in chili style or black pepper. compare to a damn snow crab that cost 100+ above for one... and have long legs and small body... hmmmm... a much of a big differences!! well, they still looked a lil red when cooked thou. =)
spot the thick clothings? it's only the start of autumn. hahaha.
nice painting huh?
lol.. proudly done by nik n me.. ( saw the 2 small lines of names at the bottom right)
took us like a whole afternoon to finish it and got it hang up the walls. =)
anyhow, last fri i sprained my left ankle.
and today!!!!
i got my left hand crashed between the wall and the cupboard.
thanks to shirley and james somemore!!
cuz we're moving the cupboard.. and they kinda forgotten my hands are still holding it...
and they pushed the cupborad against the wall...
erhmmmm...PAIN...
but well, my hands are perfectly fine... just a few spots of bruise..
wHhahhaha.
anyhow, so crap.
my 2 weeks holi are over.
my 2 weeks holi are over.
damn it.. i jus kinda screwed my holis not doin anythin n making myself frustated.
grrr! >.<
i was telling nik yesterday that i wanna get west coast eagles AFL tix for today since we are playing at Subiaco.
but ticketmaster failed me, cause they did not show it.
and today, the ticketing system is under maintainance. >.<
anyhow, we geared up for today's match.
WEST COAST EAGLES VS FREMANTLE DOCKERS.
WE WON!!!hehee =)
(a lil fact: AFL is australian football league. a football + rugby style sport. besides, watching cricket aussie love to crouch in front of the tv watching this national sport too. so there is 16 teams in AFL( i suppose), 8 of which is from victoria. and WA (which perth is! haha) has 2 teams --> eagles and dockers. so u see... since we're not fremantleians, we support eagles!! and eagles are the last year champion.. n ya.. ticketmaster is the sistic in australia! subiaco oval is the stadium at fremantle, homeground to eagles.. and the nearest to my place! )
planning to go next eagles match at subiaco.. so hopefully we get the tix!!!
eagles have the most members so the subiaco oval has 75% of the seats to members...
most prob we'll be going as one big gang with jenny n sort.
and curtin bookshop has ticketmaster.. so... wHAHAHHA...
EAGLES TO THE 2007!!
i've been receiving strings of emails today and it PISSES me off.
so i thought i'll be using this chance to declare things clear here.
i know my blog aint like some blog-busters that has millions of hits everyday.
but i do know, at least there are some people reading mine.
so it's better to speak things out here as SILVIA.
1st thing 1st,
i made my choice to come perth, and it's not because of some tom dick harry, well.. it used to, but i guess i'm totally over the idea of it. As i realise how others can take me as, i've learnt doing things best the well you like is just ME. So now, i finally learnt that the reason i am here for, i wanna make the full use of the life that i had.
so plz dont speak in front of my face and tell me, SILVIA IF I NOE, I WONT LET U COME PERTH. cuz, it's MY CHOICE DUHZ.
2ndly,
in this course of my journey in perth, i havent changed myself. At least to others, but maybe to you i have changed my feeling. cuz u hurt me remember? hahha... today, i'm still the SILVIA that my fren know, at least they still recognize me.
3rdly,
i dunno how i might appear to be, but seriously i aint interested in any tom dick harry now. Cuz, i see my life so much contented than what i was 2 years back. Not that i am saying having a r/s aint good, but mine kinda haunts me. So till one day i am forgotten of all the hardships i went thru, den i'll accept my Mr. Right. So no point accusing me fooling with another man, webcaming with another man,, HAHHA.. unless u say tat i might incest with my dad. SO FOR GOODNESS SAKE.. leave me alone.
4thly,
"And you are using your chance in Perth to mix with as many guy as possible or you feel happy when people treat you like a princess now?"
i am LEGALLY SINGLE man.
so tell me the answer ba.
hahaha.
gosh. so sicccck!
jenny is back from japan.
she n mike came over for dinner.
and as promised, she got me the amulet thingy from the temple!!
i've forgotten wad i mention to her about the amulet to get for
but mine say " tong da shou"
so i suppose it's for health ya? hahhaa...
and i got the nicest looking present apart from kel's family.
HahahaHAHA.
HahahaHAHA.
and it's reali great i mean...
to be away from home sooo far and yet i have this extended family that treats me sooo well.
it just feels to me that they are like my cousins =)
i always tot amulet somehow look squarish and it's something like 4cmx4cm.. but this look cool huh? lol.. especially she got it from the temple.. funky man...
she gave me another bag thingy, i suppose for some decorative.. but well it read : MADE IN JAPAN. i suppose it's good den. hahaha.
see how it compliment my phone already?
hahhaa.. =)
showed us tons of photos of japan.. i wanna go japan too! but they are chosing to go dubai instead. my god!
why i cant post chinese character in my blogger? hMpt.
niwae, i have my ways.. hahaha..
hope u dun mind that i post this up =)
it reali brighten my days be it u reali meant it or not.
just some silly words are what seems like an eternity for me.no wonder u are some infamous flirt! hahaha.
holis have been reali crap.
at least i have 2 lil sisters that constantly are a headache and giving me warmth.
and mike will be bringing me out one day. lol.
for the 1st time in perth, i finally broke down...
sadly, it's nt because that i miss my family badly.
but a particular person.
all this emotions & resentments about him has finally erupted.
i guess he gone way too far... too much.
thankfully ky will be willingly to listen huh? hehhee.
so i sprained my ankle yesterday.
and it sucks to the core.
cuz now i'm still crippling... and i wonder if it is serious...
and the worst thing, they dun hav a bandage...
hopefully, it will be alrite soon.
so i skipped church today cuz they suggested that i need to rest my leg.
and then i webcamed my dad and the 1st thing he goes was...
did u go church today?
man... so i told a lie tat i went.
sometimes it is reali hard to juggle been away from your family...
i dun want them to get all worried about me and stuff.
but it also breakes my heart.
and then, this fucking asshole comes n make it even worst...
my gosh.. sometimes i reali wonder.. how much do ppl reali care for me?
well at least i know some will.. but how about the rest?
when they claim they do, n yet they suck most of your blood.
random post, cuz i am fuckin piss now.
this long weekend is soooo boring..
already went to church twice in this week..
they sugguest to go back Hillarys today for the water theme park. and planned that mike n jessie can go along too.
but cant be bother man, soo freaking hot.
so plan was cancelled and we stayed at home to rot till we got singstar from lina.
played it all afternoon and night. hahha.
bump into mike n andrew at tarus for dinner.
shirely planned it i guess. hahaha.
nuthing unusual i guess, cuz they have been having dinner over our place the last few days. esp mike.
and than nik has a blood nose which kinda shocked me.
niwae, received an email from someone today.
and it says:
"Bring in your new guy and we have a talk. Come on.. How old already. You dare to play this game with me......I give you 10 min, you jolly well switch your phone on before I start messing with your family."
erm, maybe you're the immature one.
sooo freaking piss with ppl that have nothing better to do than use all this kind of crap to threaten me and harm me.
it really annoyes me when ppl tried to accuse me and find faults with me when in the end,when the truth surfaces, they act like nothing had happen before.
hahaha.
seriouly, like i bother to look for some guy and fuck with him and go mia.
more like i have found something more interesting to occupied my time. SINGSTAR! hehee
bullshit man, some ppl.
it's almost 2months that i am in Perth already!!
well, at least i welcomed 1 visistor from sg already.. hehee..
meet up with zai n his ah bang few days ago.
pick me up at Curtin then we went to westfield for a cuppa.
his hubby knows the road better than me man.. hahaha.
they're like only here for 12 days and he already know how to send me home!
den the next day we went to caversham wildlife park.
rather boring place, just some lazy animals. hahaa.
me n zai took a camel ride. i thought i'll gonna fall off the camel and break some bones and go into the A&E ok! i freaked out. hahaha.
then, we drove down to fremantle. fish n chips again!! hehehe.
well, i'm happy cause how lucky can u get to get your supervisor to pay for ur expenses oversea? lol.
last week being rather busy with losta assignment..
but i still went to Hillarys!! hhehee.. another nice port.. i like it more than the rest of the port i went.. hehehe. lotsa sailing boats. beach and shopping centre.
THE STORY HAS ENDED LONG AGO.
I'VE MADE TO MOVE ON.
AND I'M ALREADY MUCH HAPPIER.
CHEERS- FOR THIS IS HOW U EMPOWERED ME.